My Comfort Zone

Is almost going to end. It’s 6 o’clock p.m. at my side of the world and in three hour time, it’s going to be bedtime again. It’s been a boring Sunday for me. It was gloomy the whole afternoon and i really thought it’s going to rain because the sky was so dark and cool wind was beginning to blow. But much to my dismay, another unpredictable weather again. I do wonder though if it’s going to rain tonight.

It’s getting dark here now and though i’ve been kind of productive today, still it wasn’t an exciting day. Well, what can i say? Such is life, right? But i know my life will change soon and it’ll be exciting and thrilling. *wink*

Guess where this place is. This was in a memorial park – taken when we visited my hubby’s tomb on his second death anniversary in July. It was already late in the afternoon when we visited so as you can see, there’s the sun setting down. We always opted to visit in those hours to avoid the sun’s heat. We stayed there for an hour. I brought flowers and lighted candles and stayed for a while. As i look back, it only seemed like yesterday when a lot of people were there to witness the burial and sympathize with us. Everything is still vivid to me though i can say remembering those times is not that painful anymore. I’ve moved on but it will forever be in my memory…

A friend of mine told me not to trust anyone so fast, and to be careful of those people who are too good to be true because more often than not, they aren’t being themselves but more of trying to set their best foot forward — pretentious and totally not genuine. My friend is right after all. Well, i’m the type who falls and believes easily especially when being treated nicely. What i didn’t realize was i should have thought first if those gestures were true. But nevertheless, i figured out the true colors eventually and it ain’t late for me yet to stop what has been wrong all along. And no regrets for me ’cause i’ve learned from it and that’s the most important thing now.

As the famous cliche’ goes, patience is a virtue. It is indeed and i had proven it several times. I must admit, i am not as patient as before. Time indeed changes people, and the change comes from those circumstances, good or bad that we have came across throughout our journey in life. As young as i am now, i know i had gone through quite enough but i know for certain that there are still a lot in store for me. We never know what the future holds but for as long as we believe that we can make it, no matter what, then we’ll make it through the rain or should i say, come hell and high water. Don’t you agree?

I am often being scolded for being a pessimist. I tried to be an optimist as much as i want to though but there are really times that negative vibes gets in the way. I do believe that it happens to anyone. But i’m trying to get it off my system.

Anyways, i took this test and here’s the result. See? I am a realist afterall. Hehe.

This is the very first day since i’ve met him, that we haven’t talked. It is something unusual and it is something that i really don’t want to happen but it did. But this is what i’ve asked so here it is now. Never thought it would be this hard. A lot of things is just bothering me to the point that i already hurt him. I didn’t mean to do that. I knew he knows that but the damage has been done. He’s already hurt and that’s probably why he was silent the whole day. He did tell me that he understands me in his e-mail but i know it’s not just that. I think he’s already fed up with my being childish and all. I’m still hoping he’s not though. Hoping….

Everyone’s not around except for my little boy who’s still in bed sleeping. The music from the eighties is what keeping me company at the moment. It’s been my favorite music to listen to lately. I won’t get tired of listening to these kind of music over and over again ’cause they’re simply great. Anyway, i blog hopped earlier and dropped some EC. I wasn’t in the mood and just too lazy to read some posts so that’s just what i did. What a lazy Sunday i’ve got. And i’m actually missing this friend who’s been my “chatmate” recently. He’s out of town and don’t know when he’ll be home. Oh well, this is it for today. Gotta go and prepare for lunch. See yeah!

As much as i want to do the things that i love doing specifically blogging, but my body refuses to cooperate. I actually attempted to write a post about a couple of days ago but decided to stop after starting a little. I really can’t do it that time. But now that i’m fine, i’m now back to business. I don’t have anything to do here at home especially on a weekend so if you’re going to visit me, you will actually see me sitting in front of the pc most of the day. Not at all weekends though. It still depends but most of the time, it is. Glad my illness is now gone. It’s been five days that i was suffering from fever and colds. Glad it’s finally over. Tomorrow’s Monday so back to work again. Been absent for the whole week actually. Missed the workplace. Will see it tomorrow though.

I’ve always loved reading, always loved writing and actually scribbling while daydreaming. I could say, I do it best when i’m at my best though i still do it when i’m at my worst but the difference is, the latter is more of pain and sadness, and sometimes anger. But i seldom do that as compared to those happy moments. Writing down things during happy times also produces a good result. Perhaps you can relate not unless you’re not into writing or scribbling. I’m not a writer though. I just do writing for myself. I used to keep a diary for three consecutive years but stopped after i got married. But i still keep them with me and i read them once in a while, and the events that happened still never fails to put a smile on my smile up to this time. What can i say? They’re all happy memories…